Dear Diery

Merry XMAS!

2006-12-25T23:45:08Z

Merry Xmas

Update on the Dan

2006-07-27T17:56:20Z

Hello everyone. Things have been alright lately. This past week I had a friend of mine fly up and stay with me and now I miss her, but it was really cool for her to be here for some time. I've been driving for over a month now and love it. I am working on my goal of smoking atleast once a day for the whole summer, excluding the first 4 days I was back. I've been going in and out of feeling super happy and feeling like shit...but hey, that's what I do. I don't have any major complaints.

I hope everyone's doing well; take care.

Dan

For those of you who go outside....

2006-06-22T20:24:21Z

I drive...MUAHHAAHAHAHHA

New art update

2006-06-07T08:59:36Z

Probably gunna be adding more art to my deviant art account...don't steal it...heh...anyway...

http://manicloathing.deviantart.com

yup

Hey

2006-06-05T08:09:03Z

PS: Home

mephitic_chaos @ 2006-05-26T19:54:00

2006-05-27T00:05:02Z

Depression's been hitting me hard and at random times lately. This isn't the regular depression either...I wish there was a regular depression, heh. I'm gaining weight, getting annoyed (but not as angry as I used to, which almost worries me), feeling lonely...I've been loosing me again in the worst way. No creativity...my fun goes up real high and then crashes deep...I love the word manic, even the sound of it rouses something inside me...I wonder if I'll snap...the brain is a marvelous thing, what you think effects how and what else you think, and it rotates around itself, conscious of itself and its own patterns...creating more and more complex ways of viewing oneself and reality. It's a shame usually deep thought brings one into a depressed state that brings about the classic downward spiral...wheee...rollarcoaster...I am on a rollarcoaster with so many staggering ups and downs...yet no events...nothing exciting...lifechanging...wonderful or horrible...but on a big enough scale when everything is compared when everything is flat...one little bump could be a mile...yammer yammer yammer...blah blah blah...I have nothing to complain about, yet things seem so rancid...

Atleast my other depressions offered me deep creative insight and madness...this only brings self loathing with a side of being pathetic with apathetic dipping sauce...funny, I feel like I don't care and care a lot at the same time...seeing as how nothing really changes...I don't know if I mind or not...what would I change if I could change anything? Nothing I suppose, again...nothing to really complain about...

I think getting depressed over a problem, then being all blah and looking at the problem like it's small and doesn't matter makes matters worse...then I feel shitty about how I got worked up over something so minuscule...even though it isn't...ugh...

*grumble* I wish I were angry...worked up, enraged or something...some feeling other than the blah...cause things aren't bad...just annoying...

mephitic_chaos @ 2006-05-25T22:57:00

2006-05-26T03:01:10Z

There's no one on, so here I make my drunken entry. I am really pissed off. I was drunk and trying to keep myself in a good mood, when I knew I was already being held down by some severe depression that I have been struggling with...so I was alrteady on the line with being drunk and happy to drunk and pissed off/sad/crying. I can't take jokes when drunk...especially when I have to yell my head off for someone to realize I'm talking...to being the center for attention of being shot with an airsoft gun...the gun didn't fucking hurt me, the smiles that shot it did...the glee i saw after I was shocked made me almost cry it hurt...I am not happy right now. And I believe I just made a decent entry while smashed off my ass where I can't even walk right. Go Dan.

mephitic_chaos @ 2006-05-18T02:42:00

2006-05-18T06:44:55Z

You know, I don't really have anything to complain about, but life feels very grey again. Lots of things aren't fun anymore, SCAD isn't new, I don't really know what's me anymore either. I've really lost me somewhere and I don't know where. Probably somewhere in this mess that is my room *eyes pictures from middle->highschool* Nah, not me either...

mephitic_chaos @ 2006-04-22T13:01:00

2006-04-22T17:02:50Z

Happy 420 guys...I know it's a few days late, but if you had as good as a celebration that I had...well, you'll be reading this when you crawl out of your slumber too...hehehe....Silent Hill was crazy on brownies...oh mygod...haha...wow...love everyone...

Hey...I haven't updated in awhile...life is going...it just is, it's going...going pretty decently, no huge complaints...

Because I'm Irish...ish

2006-03-17T19:51:45Z

Happy Saint Patricks Day!!!

-Love Daniel Patrick Flanders

mephitic_chaos @ 2005-12-11T10:23:00

2005-12-11T15:23:55Z

I am updating trying to fix a bug on my puter...lets hope it works...yup...

So...who wants to get some Dan-action? Rawr! ...yeah...

Edit: It did not fix the bug...grumble...

Hehehe

2005-12-06T03:35:57Z

Stolen from kitty_kat226

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last week I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). In January I bought porn for spiralz13 (-10 points). In February I helped imgonnashowyou see the light (8 points). In September I committed genocide... Sorry about that, i_am_pants (-5000 points). In March I turned manifested_hate in for spitting (3 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-4673 points). For Christmas I deserve a lump of coal!

Sincerely,
mephitic_chaos

Doin' Good

2005-12-03T04:11:01Z

Doing good, things are cool

Haven't updated in awhile. I am infact in Vermont and will be until January 3rdish.

Just had a fun night with the Girls, hehe, Page Lisa Cait and myself (Not that I am one of the girls, but I didn't want to put any of them last...but me saying that..er...nevermind). We watched Lara Croft 2 and Shaolin Soccer, awesome movie. Workin again, all that stuff. Yup.

Hope everyone's well!

Tata!

Stolen!

2005-11-18T00:06:04Z

Stolen from purple_kitty226

1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie/book/fictional character reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a substance to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. Or at least me.
5. I'll tell you my favorite memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal or plant you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST.

mephitic_chaos @ 2005-11-17T16:40:00

2005-11-17T21:41:58Z

Yup, haven't updated with real life in awhile. But mif, nothin really going on. Excited to go back soon, see all you folks, my family and my dog. Yup. Anyway, life has me a bit confused but nothing I can't manage. Things are still pretty good.

Those moods.

2005-11-14T13:24:15Z

I am in one of those moods again...one of those good moods. I am in a very happy smiley mood, it's nice. One of those moods, hehe.

mephitic_chaos @ 2005-11-11T05:11:00

2005-11-11T10:16:51Z

I just had an amazing night! So much fun! It all starts at 9ish I guess, I was having a horridly rancid day. But then I was hanging out iwth my friend Vicky, then my friend Christina, then after getting back from a gas station hanging out with my friend Isa. Where we proceded to get intoxicated with my new friend Ly. We had a dance party for a very long time, then they went to sleep. My friend John and I were hanging out for awhile until I talked to my friend Emmy on IM. Emmy and I tried to find a store selling alcohole but failed. But we still all had fun, John, Emmy, Vicky and I hung out, listened to music with a strobe, sang, and just had fun until just now.

Still, the highlight of my night, and I want her to know this, was Page coming back. It meant a lot to me seeing her for a short time, it really was the best part of my awesome-est night at college.

Who knew the best night would come out of the worst day? I have to get up at like 8, so I'm not going to sleep. But I love everyone right now, and I'm no longer tipsy so I know it.

PS: First time in my life being drunk, man it was fun!

PPS: Hope everyone's doing well, have a great day!

Come on Dan, everyone's doing it

2005-11-10T19:56:58Z

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Family, Career and Love are all in balance...hehehe...

mephitic_chaos @ 2005-11-09T09:33:00

2005-11-09T14:34:25Z

I do believe things are going good =)

mephitic_chaos @ 2005-11-06T12:52:00

2005-11-06T17:53:23Z

Had fun kinda last night. Things are still not even. I really am confused still...

Edit: I've been increasingly more irratable lately, probably due to being confused, I hate being confused. Not sure what to do, who to hang with, who to put effort into, and just the plan old what the fuck. Dan is a rather unhappy camper, wearing a mask. Fucking, shit.

mephitic_chaos @ 2005-11-05T13:20:00

2005-11-05T18:28:17Z

Just smashed the fuck out of my ring finger, fell off my bike with an armful of stuff, landed on it and slid. The nail riped in half and fliped up sideways...the worst part was getting the large hunk ofr gravel out from under the bloody nail. My friend Jon Galvin was there to help me out with our friend Kristen; I am okay but can't use that hand very well now...still really bloody...also ripped a b loody hole in my good jeans, grrr.

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Batman, the Dark Knight

83%

Captain Jack Sparrow

71%

Neo, the "One"

67%

James Bond, Agent 007

54%

Indiana Jones

54%

Lara Croft

54%

The Amazing Spider-Man

54%

El Zorro

50%

William Wallace

46%

The Terminator

38%

Maximus

38%

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Stolen From kitty_kat226

2005-11-04T00:13:18Z

I recommend doing this I guess...

1* First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Blow

2* Last word you said: band

3* Last song you sang: Build Me Up Buttercup

4* Last person you hugged: Page

5* Last thing you laughed at: Page, putting mascara on my (pretty) eyelashes

6* Last time you said 'I don't know': In response to "How are you doing today?"

7* Last time you cried: Earlier today, just alittle

8* Last time you smiled: 6:30

*PRESENT*
9* What color socks are you wearing: Black

10* What's under your bed: Nothing, well, the floor

11* What time did you wake up today: 7, then 10:40, then again at 3:30

12* Current taste: Empty mouth

13* Current hair: Back, under a hat

14* Current smell: Roomate's cleaning supplies

15* Current annoyance: Not knowing what to do.

16* Current longing: Love

17* Current desktop background: Jack-o-lantern I made

18* Current worry: No one will want me

19* Current hate: Hating anger

20* Current favorite article of clothing: My various hats.

21* Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: Eyes and Legs

22* Last CD that you listened to: Pink Floyd : Wish You Were Here

23* Favorite place to be: Page's Room, John's Room, Debi's Room or Meret's Room...not my room though

24* Least favorite place: The Gap or BathandBodyworks

25* Time you wake up in the morning: 8-10 then 12-3

26* If you could play an instrument, what would you play: I would love to be good at guitar

27* Favorite color: Red, Black and sometimes green

28* Do you believe in an afterlife: I hope there is one

29* How tall are you: 5'6''

30* Current favorite word/saying: Right now? Um...I don't.

31* Favorite book: Not sure, Jurassic Park maybe

32* Favorite season: Autumn

33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: My best friend from kindergarten, Shara, she's married now and her husband is in Iraq

34* Favorite memory growing up: I don't remember good memories, I only really remember bad/sad ones...

35* Where do you want to go for college? I go to Savannah College of Art and Design.

36* What is your career going to be like: Working on conceptual designs for movie monsters.

38* How old do you want to be when you get married?: 20's-30 to get married, then for the rest of my life.

39* Said "I love you" and meant it: Definately have

40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc?: Not really...had to hold Max from ripping through a screen a few times, she's a silly puppy.

41* Been to New York: Aye

42* Been to Florida: Aye

43* Been to California: Nay

44* Been to Hawaii: Nay

45* Been to Mexico: Nay

46* Been to China: Nay

47* Been to Canada: Aye

48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Sometimes.

49* Missed anyone: Aye

50* Regretted anything: Yes and No...I learned and I don't regret learning, but I regret not learning before something bad happened.

51* Broken someone's heart: I think so.

*RANDOM*

52* Do you have a crush on someone: Aye

53* What book are you reading now? Not very well read

54* Worst feeling in the world: Feeling alone with no one to turn to

55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: That must be ----!

56* How many rings before you answer: Depends on how long it takes to get my phone

57* Future daughter's name: Not sure

58* Future son's name: I would like the middle name to be Daniel (both my Father and Brother have that as a middle name)

59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: If I fall asleep in Page's room, hehe horsie.

60* If you could have any job you wanted: Ruler of Earth

61* Wish were here: My dog

62* College plans: Finish with an Illustration Degree and get famous!

63* Piercings: Left Ear

*THE EXTRA STUFF*
64* Do you do drugs: Have before

67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: Some lime smelling stuff from Avon

68* What are you most scared of: Being unliked/unloved

69* What clothes do you sleep in: Boxers or Jeans

70* Who is the last person that called you: Page

71* Where do you want to get married: Somewhere beautiful

72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: Pushing people away/being a creep

73* Who do you really hate: Long list

74* Been In Love: Very much so

75* Are you timely or always late: Depends

76* Do you have a job: Used to be...In Market Research!

77* Do you like being around people: Yes

78* Best feeling in the world: Loving someone who loves you, family, friends, significant other.

79* Are you for world peace: The idea yeah, but it's not very sound.

80* Are you a health freak: I'd like to be healthier, but I like my candy!

81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: I used to, always seems to be crazy women though!

82* Your best feature: Sense of humor maybe?

83* Are you lonely right now: Yes

84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: I don't think that's a problem

85* Do you want to get married: Very much so

86* Do you want kids? Definately

*IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*

87* Cried: Aye

88* Bought Something: Like food?

89* Gotten Sick: Nope

90* Sang: Aye

91* Said I Love You: Aye

92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved Them: Aye

93* Met Someone: Aye

94* Moved On: Whaaaaat?

95* Talked To Someone: Aye

96* Had A Serious Talk: More or less

97* Missed Someone: Aye

98* Hugged Someone: Aye

99* Yelled at Someone: Nay

100* Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: Yes, I hate those almost real dreams...

Rant about Shit

2005-11-03T16:55:25Z

Okay...so...if I am to get over Page, it'd be easier if I had some kind of female friend...no one here that I'm ever so shallowly attracted to is attracted to me. Page has an auntorage of men wanting to be with her...I fucked up big time. Ever girl that after getting to know them I'm still attracted to seems to not want much to do with me, more than friends. I don't mind, and I don't want to go looking for a girlfriend...but this sucks. I don't even know if I want a relationship, just someone I can hug a lot and feel comfortable around. I can't get over Page with Page...it doesn't work and just makes me realize how much I do love her...and there's not hope for getting back together, I've lost it, last night I lost the hope. I wish I didn't act so fucking childish or creepy around new people...or even older friends, I really don't like how I act around people, but I can't stop...like some stupid mask glued to my face until no one's looking. I don't know what's appropriate, or what I should do...I feel bad about having high standards, it takes a lot for me to actually be attracted to someone, it's pretty rare the feelings are returned. I'm a little overweight, I don't do anything special, the guys down here are mostly really cool, and have things they're passionate about, or good at...I can never think of anything like that...

In three weeks I'll be home, not much use starting anything now, and not much use starting anything back at home, I really just want everything to be okay. Life doesn't suck, just putting that out there, but sometimes there's situations that make everything a bit darker. Like when you can kiss someone you want to, or you have a good memory that ties to a bad one, or people ignore you, or you get in an argument with a teacher....you know, shit like that. The universe is a friendly place, Albert. You just have to find it.

Hope everyone is well, sorry for a long update.

-Dan

Happy Halloween

2005-10-31T08:37:46Z

Happy Halloween!!!

mephitic_chaos @ 2005-10-30T17:00:00

2005-10-30T22:01:20Z

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

I don't even know how I feel anymore, no the depressed grey not knowing, but just the, very confused kind. Not sure what I should be happy for and what I should want more of. Yeah.